"I love you, do you love me? I love you and not in a friendly way,
although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced attraction
puppy dog way although I'm sure that's what you call it. I love you,
very simply, very truly. You're the epitome of everything I've ever
looked for in another human being and I know you think of me as just
a friend and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option
you'd ever consider. But I had to say it, I just can't take this
anymore, I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you, I
can't look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read
about in trashy romance novels, I can't talk to you without wanting to
express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably
like queer our friendship, but I had to say it cause I've never felt
this way before and I don't care, I like who I am because of it. And
if bringing this out tonight means that we can't hang out anymore
then that hurts me but God I couldn't allow another day without
getting it out there regardless of the outcome, which by the look on
your face, is to be the inevitable shoot down and you know I'll accept
that but I know, I know that some part of you is hesitating for a
moment and if there is a moment of hesitation then that means you
feel something too and all I ask is that you please not dismiss that
and try to dwell on it for just 10 seconds. There isn't another soul
on this whole planet who has made me half of the person I am when I'm
with you. And I'd risk this friendship for a chance to take it to the
next plateau because it's there between you and me you can't deny
that. Even if we never talk again after tonight please know that I am
forever changed because of who you're and what you've meant to me.
...But I did love you then, only I didn't realize it because it was
so strong, and I still do love you, even though I know I've probably
blown my chance."
@ 9:56 PM